November 14, 2011 § Leave a comment
I’ve never been into Anne Geddes. Maybe even mentioning her name dates myself… but the point is the same. Yes, I think babies are cute but never would I hang a picture of one on my wall in some silly costume or contorted shape. Never.
Its been this past year however that I have become fascinated by babies. I volunteer once a week looking after babes and every week it amazes me at how different they are, how fast they learn and grow. It is, amazing & to be a little bit more sappy it just really grabs my heart when they ask for a kiss for their hurt pinky or hand or elbow. “You, want a kiss from me?!” I think to myself, “I can make it all better?!” and for a second I do!! It is amazing. … For a second. There is just something about babies that is so pure. Maybe its their helplessness. Their reliance. Their Innocence. Whatever it is its captivating.
A couple weeks ago I had the chance to look into the eyes of a baby whose circumstances were devastating. For one quick hour I got to hold him. To look at his little tiny face, hold his little tiny hand, change his little tiny diaper, and just pray that God would swoop him up and save him.
It gives me perspective. Yea, I was a baby once. From the pictures I was pretty cute too! But a baby or not I still need saving just as much as the little ones do. It just takes a lot more humility to ask for it.
November 4, 2011 § Leave a comment
I often think one choice is going to make or break my life. Like if I go to class at 8:45 or 8:46. At 8:45 I might meet someone in the elevator and have a good conversation that sets up the rest of my day for awesomeness, or at 8:46 I meet someone totally different we don’t say a word and the day is left lacking something. If you’ve ever watched the tv series Community the episode “Remedial Chaos Theory” goes into greater depth on my thought, and well worth the watch.
Yes, I understand this is over thinking. But I need to acknowledge the power of these choices, because they add up.
Last night I went out to a bar with some co-workers. I rarely go out and drink which makes me a lightweight who doesn’t know my limit. I wont go into depth of details but at the end of it all I had a few too many and not enough sleep to make it class this morning. So I’m stuck here thinking about all the possibilities of life, that I’ve spun myself off into some strange unknown trajectory over one night. At this point I see truth and mistruth in my thinking.
Truth: I missed things.
Last night I missed out on some awesome sleep (a high priority in my life). This morning I could be missing out on some great learning that could have motivated me toward a career in something amazing. Not to mention that I haven’t even got in the elevator yet, and the endless possible 30 second conversations being missed is killing me.
Mistruth: I have the power to mess up God’s plan.
My desire is to see God’s will worked out in my life and I don’t think one stupid night or lame morning can stop that from happening. God wouldn’t be a very powerful god if that were the case. The bible talks about God having plans for our lives (Jeremiah 29: 11), Him being the creator of all things (Job 38), the entire story of Jesus’ displays the love and sovereignty of my God (Gospels Matthew, Mark, Luke, John). So how then could I be defeated over one little choice? Martin Luther nailed his 95 thesis to the door of the catholic church starting with a christian’s life is one of repentance. Acknowledging our wrong and gaining forgiveness through christ, that is truth worth knowing and it requires daily conscious action.
In Romans 6:1 it says: “What shall we say then? Shall we go on sinning so that grace may increase? By no means! We died to sin; how can we live in it any longer?”
The sin we commit has an impact and we should be accountable to it, but we’re not defeated when we sin but find redemption in Christ.
Side note: If I hadn’t gone out I wouldn’t have met a man with a telescope who showed me jupiter and 3 of its moons. So amazing. If you’re interested check out this national geographic article on jupiter: